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Friday, January 27, 2006
to n: if you think that all these problems are disturbing you and its STUPID,think again because i'd rather we fight and tell the truth than just put on fake smiles when im not even okay with anything.i have never in my life said that im PERFECT and that i want PERFECT friends.nobody in this world is PERFECT.if i think i was PERFECT,i wouldnt have admit my flaws.everyone has flaws.and i didnt say that im not a hypocrite..i admit i am..everyone has to be one sometimes..but you said before you hate hypocrites,which made me think,youre one of them too so do you hate yourself?that day when i was working with you,of course i had to talk to you because i thought everything was already settled..i wasnt putting on a fake smile..and you know i wouldnt do that..if i dont like someone means i dont like..i wont even bother talking to them.and have you ever realised that im always the one giving in whenever theres a fight between us?? and you even said its not in my nature to give in.HAVE YOU REALISED that i always do that..how long have you known me??? but this time im not gonna say sorry unless you give in too..i really wonder why am i always the first to give in?? why for once cant it be you??i do forgive but i dont forget.how can you just so easily forget major things that affects your feelings??i know we may seem close but theres that tiny problem,we dont open up much.well i do actually open up to you.but you never bother to tell me anything..you always tell eunice but not me..whenever i ask you'll just be shaking your head and saying nothings wrong.so i always thought that its pointless for me to keep asking when you always wont tell me things. to e: ya you have lots of problems i know.im really sorry i wasnt there for you after your first break up.you two were always there for me whenever i had any guy problems.but the reason i couldnt be there for you was because i was pissed after what you said to me on the phone..you called me STUPID remember..you ALWAYS do..that wasnt the first time..and ya im mad at you for saying i cant handle the machine..do you even know how much work we have to do??youre not in the position to tell me if i can handle it because all you do is just take orders from people and serve them food.you dont even have to touch any damn computer or the cash register or even do any dumb paperwork.i admit nadirah is more of a hands on person than i am..im more of a book person..thats why she can do everything so easily..im just through with you always calling me stupid and always thinking that i cant do things..you always look down on me..you think youre soooo smart..you always think youre right and others are wrong..HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT ABOUT HOW I FELT AFTER YOU INSULTED ME?? you'll always find some way to insult me but when people say things about you,noooooooo cannot..you'll get so pissed and walk away..imagine me having to listen to your insults like everytime..thats why i said in my previous post you dont know when to shut the hell up..sorry for saying this but its true..i dont say things for fun and dont mean them..so please,will you just stop it?? im sick of it..really..ive had enough of it.. if you two wanna hate me for saying all these then go ahead.i admit i haven exactly been a good friend to anyone.im probably the worst friend anyone could have.like one friend who said in his blog,there's always bound to be a friendship fight..which group of friends never fight before?? fights affect friendship in one way or another,its either good or bad but i really dont see us hating each other after every fight..i dont wanna lose you both as friends..i love you guys nomatter what.that i cant deny..im not gonna let 4 years of friendship go down the drain because of small things.but its time for me to say whatever i have kept for quite long enough already..i just cant take it anymore..its weird how we always fight but we're like so strong.i guess the saying that 'friends who mostly fight have the strongest friendship' is somehow true..not on all groups of friends,but one thing i know,it works for us. |